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Sunday, April 16, 2006

If I could relive a moment...

Imagine you were Ashton Kutcher in the Butterfly effect...

If you had the ability to go back in time and relive a single moment in your life one more time, would you do it? And if you would do it, would you change what happened?

Before I get to my answer, I must say that football kind of hurts, especially if you are running around all day trying to dodge AZN viet kids from the city who are bigger than you. To name a few of my injuries from today: a cut elbow from sliding on dirt which will most likely get infected, a bruised upper right ass cheek, 2 bummed knees, my left shoulder/bicep feels really weak, and reaggrevated my left ankle. But its all in good fun.

Back to the question:

There's no doubt in my mind that if I could relive one moment in my life I would definately do it. Choosing which one, however, would be tough. There are so many moments I would love to revisit, but, come to think of it, why would you want to? What good could possibly come from reliving that one moment in your life, and then reverting back to the present? Just for the same feeling you had at the time? Would it be any beneficial to you now? Probably not. You'd probably snap back to the present with an even bigger yearning to return to that moment. Though, I talked to someone earlier about this, and this person would relive a vague moment to remember it more clearly. Makes sense...

Funny, Staind's "It's Been a While" just came up on my playlist that I have on random...

Now for the other question...

What if you changed it somehow for it to be beneficial to you in the "future" (meaning you'd change what you did in the past to benefit you NOW). That would seem pretty nice huh? Boy, did Ashton screw up in the Butterfly Effect. One day he's laying in bed with the hottest sorority girl on campus but realizes something else is screwed up, so he goes back to fix the problem and all of a sudden that girl is coke addict whore. So he goes back to un-whore her and he's missing his arms.

Point is, there are times in this world where you will regret your actions or non actions. What if I didn't move back to the US from Singapore? What if I made that final shot? What if I didn't make that stupid bet with my friend in high school to see who could take that girl to prom? What if I hooked up with that girl? What if I didn't hook up with that other girl? Whatever it is, I'm confident whatever happens in your life was for the best possible outcome. Look at me now. Singapore totally shaped the way I am today, I have quite possibly the closest friends I have ever had since the Singapore days, and I'm still single ;)

That being said, after writing this post I have decided that the single moment I wish to relive would be the one year I spent in Singapore. I still don't think people understand why I enjoyed it so much there, but I guess you just had to be there. I wish I could take all the doubters to Singapore for 2 weeks just to show them. All this talk of Singapore is making me nostalgic. Perhaps a Singapore blog next...

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Fighting words

Currently on month 8 of 22 straight months of school/classes.

I should probably forfeit.
But I won't. That's the easy way out.

Fight it out like a man, either go down with the ship or reap the benefits.

In other words:

Programming sucks. I freaking hate it. But I'm not going to quit now. I've gone too far, gone too deep to back out. I'm pot-committed. I've put too much time, effort, and money to just walk away and gain nothing from it. So, I'm going to stick it out, I have 4 more classes to go (that's if I can get through the 2 I have this semester) and I'm just going to try to do whatever I can to get past. And if I fail, so be it, I'll accept defeat. But if I pass and graduate with 2 degrees...

Maybe next post I will compile all of my past blogs about how much I hate Comp Sci. Hey, I'm still here aren't I?
(edit 4/10: I managed to finish my program and so here's the list:)
May 1, 2005
June 29, 2005
July 6, 2005
August 1, 2005
September 26, 2005
February 16, 2006
Februrary 28, 2006


Though, the other night, I really did find something I enjoyed doing. I enjoy spreading my frugalness onto other people. Yes, I enjoy helping other people save money. And I enjoy spending their money as well. Just ask the Suns. I helped them purchase 2 laptops, saved them almost $1500. It was pretty fun helping them. So if you need help/advice on what something you want to buy (especially electronics), let me know.

I wish I could make a career out of it...

Back to the battle!