We are not young anymore.

I was at one of my friend's 21st birthday parties last night when I came to a realization. Here I was, sitting on a couch in a hot, dirty room with a bunch of drunk half naked white boys (I was pretty drunk too, of course) while I'm watching the old school Nick Arcade. I remember watching that when I was younger, how awesome I thought it was to actually be INSIDE a video game! So when I was belligerently yelling at the television set (the stupid kid couldn't save the humans from being abducted by UFOs!), I realized there was something wrong about watching a kid's show while drinking alcohol. It was at that moment that turning 21 actually hit me. Next year, I'll be working for the next 40 years. I'll have to worry about paying my mortgage, my taxes, etc, etc. Whatever happened to our innocence? Whatever happened to worrying about what team was going to win in Legends of the Hidden Temple (go silver snakes!)? I feel as if I have grown up so fast, where has the time gone? What have I done with my life? Lebron is my age and he's a freaking superstar. Sharapova is a world class tennis player and is 3 years younger than me. Yes, I know. 1 in a million(even 100 million) will ever gain the success that they have, but what have I done? I go to UD. My GPA is a mediocre 3.1. I'm not extraordinary at anything. Whatever...next topic.

So continuing on this theme of adulthood and the loss of innocence, I went to a BBQ with a few Vietnamese people today and we were talking about getting married. I think about all the people I know who are in a serious relationship or engaged/married and once again I think to myself, "Where the hell have I been?" I haven't even been with many girls EVER and there are people my age (and younger) who are locked in a serious relationship. Dude, I'm 21! My mom had me when she was 22. People my age are going to be getting married within 5 years! Me? I haven't had a real relationship, ever. We came to the conclusion that you have to take your chances. If one meets a girl/guy they are interested in, they have to go for it, whether they are "just friends" or not, because you never know. The next time you see them, they could have a ring on their left hand.

Depressing, isn't it?